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Thursday February 24th, 1994 @5PM

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That's right, 2/24/94...

I've been keeping a journal off and on since (ironically enough) 4/19 or 4/20 1992.  Its a hoot to read back over what I was thinking and feeling thru the years.  And I just came across this one from a little over 14 years ago.  My god the time flies!!!

2/24/94
I'm just sitting here copying Dave bootlegs for Peryn, so I thought I'd write in the ole journal.
I saw Dave and Widespread last night [in Raleigh and Mickey was still standing (I think)].  It was a good show.  They both jammed out pretty hard,.
I think I'll smoke a cigarette and then delve into a topic...
As if I haven't spent years on this topic: Alice Burruss.  Well, here we go again!  Alice came back to State this semester.  She's in one of my classes, so we've been seeing a lot of each other.  Recently we've been talking more from the heart and its gotten us closer.  Well, guess what?  I can't stop thinking about her.
You know they say that the first love is usually the building stone needed to find the special person you'll spend your life with.  Alice and I are a special situation.  We were each other's first love and since then we've been involved with other people.  Yet after four years we're talking again and getting closer.  I've experienced enough in that time to know that I've never felt the feelings I have for Alice with anyone else.  She is truly the most special person I've ever met.  To this day I love her as much as I did when we were dating.  I would honestly ask her to marry me if we were older and in the situation where she'd say yes.
But regardless of all of that, I'm so happy that we are getting close again.  I'd give the world to get back together with her, but I'll keep that on the back burner and just enjoy our friendship...

So yeah... that's a long time ago.  I have since been through TWO wives.  And a few girlfriends.  To be honest though, from the time that was written, there really haven't been that many girls.  I think I really do have some commitment issues.  Hah!!!!
I do still hold Alice in a very special place.  She was the first.  Number one.  And I look back at that year together as the best I've ever had with a girl.
I don't really analyze feelings and tend to change the subject if it ever comes up.  That being said, I'm sure at some point in time I have been as crazy in love as I was with Alice.  But that's just a guess.  An educated one, because I've got two ex-wives, and you'd like to think I was at least somewhat in love with them.  But to be honest, aside from Micki Beach and Marcia, I don't think I've had that crazy in love feeling like I did for Alice.

Anywho... I thought that was pretty funny digging up a 14 year old journal entry!  

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