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Tuesday, September 30, 2008

Where's My Muse?

My muse is out to lunch.  Or maybe on vacation.  There's always the sabbatical idea, which I like, cause maybe then she'll come back re-charged and energized and ready to inspire to new and great heights.  Whatever the reason, I hope she hurries her little self back.  Because I've got nothing these days, friends and neighbors.  Nothing.  Like gas stations.  Like answers by the politicians to our mounting problems.  Nothing.

Course, I could post my thoughts on the economic crisis.  But that's boring.  All we hear all day long is a bunch of partisan ideas and complaints and solutions.  Blah, blah, blah.  Could it be that this great empire is falling.  I mean, we all took history.  We all learned about the great ones falling.  They all did.  Is it our time?  Scary thoughts, huh kids?

Could talk about college football.  UNC is looking good.  Butch has us pointed in the right direction.  Give the man another year and I think we'll be on the national stage.  And that'll be pretty damn nice.  We can cheer for the Heels from September until April.  Because we all know damn well that Roy is just getting warmed up.  The talent he's bringing in and the program he's running are just going to get better and better.  And Coach Fucking K is declining with each passing year.  Pretty soon those god damn Cameron Crazies won't have nearly as much to scream about.

Could talk about the changing of the seasons and how much I love Autumn.  October being my most favorite of all the months.  I'd love for December to regain some of its luster, but that'd take a small miracle.  So I'll just keep loving October.  The smell of the leaves and the occasional fire from someone's chimney.  That evil, "something wicked this way comes" feeling that you can almost feel in the air for the week around Halloween.  Man, what a great month!

Anywho, hope she comes back soon.  Cause that's just the broad strokes.  We're really needing to sink the ole teeth into something meaty.  Something tangible.  Something big.  But maybe, hopefully, wherever she is, she's having a big old time.  God speed, my muse........................... 

Thursday, September 25, 2008

Thursday, September 18, 2008

Today's Horoscope...

"Interpersonal issues that were overwhelming yesterday now seem more manageable. If someone wants to talk with you today, don't let the opportunity pass, for you should be able to speak with great ease about sensitive topics. Remember, the point isn't to convince anyone that you are right; it's just about sharing your heart and listening with an open mind."

Well that's a relief.  There actually was a topic that I broached yesterday with someone but didn't get to finish.  But the planets tell me that today's the day to tie things up.  Thank goodness.  I was sweating it.  But, man do I love it when the planets come to the rescue and make everything all better......




Wednesday, September 17, 2008

This Is Just a Test...

It appears that I've somehow linked my blog with Face Book so that my posts appear of my profile page.  An interesting twist if in fact that's the case.  So this is a test to see if that is true.

WCPE is playing the entire "Nutcracker" by Tchaikovsky.  My favorite.  I only listen to it during the month of December (and of course if and when WCPE plays it).  So today is a treat.  I also save Vince Gauraldi's "Charlie Brown Christmas" for the month of December.  Unfortunately, every retail store in America likes to rape Charlie Brown for the 3.5 months of Christmas season.  Poor guy.  And that being said, I suppose since football season has started, we'll probably start hearing Christmas music any day now.  Guess I should probably go get my tree........

Face Book (Here We Go)...

I've been wanting to write a post lately about this whole "Face Book" and "My  Space" thing.  The posting I had in mind wasn't going to be pretty.  Sort of on the same lines as my views on cell phones.  But I got an email from my buddy Gavin saying I should get on Face Book.  So I did.  After all, Gavin is rarely wrong.  Almost prophetic in a way.  

Yeah, so got onto Face Book last night.  So far so good.  Already found some people I have wanted to get in touch with.  Found some others I never expected to hear from ever again.  So gotta say that its pretty cool to hopefully reconnect with some of these people.

And I was trying to put some content on my home page thingy.  But of course, I'm rather hungover this morning and my brain is just not firing very well.

Nap.  Must nap.  Need some more sleep...... 

Tuesday, September 16, 2008

David Foster Wallace (from the NYT)

David Foster Wallace, Influential Writer, Dies at 46

By BRUCE WEBER
Published: September 14, 2008

David Foster Wallace, whose prodigiously observant, exuberantly plotted, grammatically and etymologically challenging, philosophically probing and culturally hyper-contemporary novels, stories and essays made him an heir to modern virtuosos like Thomas Pynchon and Don DeLillo, an experimental contemporary of William T. Vollmann, Mark Leyner and Nicholson Baker and a clear influence on younger tour-de-force stylists like Dave Eggers and Jonathan Safran Foer, died on Friday at his home in Claremont, Calif. He was 46.

Mr. Wallace was an apparent suicide. A spokeswoman for the Claremont police said Mr. Wallace’s wife, Karen Green, returned home to find that her husband had hanged himself. Mr. Wallace’s father, James Donald Wallace, said in an interview on Sunday that his son had been severely depressed for a number of months.

A versatile writer of seemingly bottomless energy, Mr. Wallace was a maximalist, exhibiting in his work a huge, even manic curiosity — about the physical world, about the much larger universe of human feelings and about the complexity of living in America at the end of the 20th century. He wrote long books, complete with reflective and often hilariously self-conscious footnotes, and he wrote long sentences, with the playfulness of a master punctuater and the inventiveness of a genius grammarian. Critics often noted that he was not only an experimenter and a showoff, but also a God-fearing moralist with a fierce honesty in confronting the existence of contradiction.

“David Foster Wallace can do practically anything if he puts his mind to it,” Michiko Kakutani, chief book critic of The New York Times, who was not a consistent praiser of Mr. Wallace’s work, wrote in 2006. “He can do sad, funny, silly, heartbreaking and absurd with equal ease; he can even do them all at once.”

Mr. Wallace, who had taught creative writing at Pomona College in Southern California since 2001 and before that had taught at Illinois State University, came to prominence in 1986 with a broadly comic first novel, “The Broom of the System” (Viking), published when he was just 24. It used the narrative frame of a young woman’s search for identity to draw a loopy portrait of America on a comic and dangerous spiral into the Disneyesque confusion of reality and artifice.

Mr. Wallace was best known for his mammoth 1996 novel, “Infinite Jest” (Little, Brown), a 1,079-page monster that perceives American society as self-obsessed, pleasure-obsessed and entertainment-obsessed. (The president, Johnny Gentle, is a former singer.) The title refers to an elusive film that terrorists are trying to get their hands on because to watch it is to be debilitated, even killed, or so it’s said, by enjoyment. The main characters are a stressed-out tennis prodigy and a former thief and drug addict, and they give rise to harrowing passages about panic attacks and detox freak-outs. The book attracted a cult of fans (and critics too) for its subversive writing, which was by turns hallucinogenically stream of consciousness, jubilantly anecdotal, winkingly sardonic and self-consciously literary. The following year Mr. Wallace received a MacArthur Foundation grant, the so-called genius award.

In contrast to the lively spirit of his writing, Mr. Wallace was a temperamentally unassuming man, long-haired, unhappy in front of a camera, consumed with his work and its worth, perpetually at odds with himself. Journalists who interviewed him invariably commented on his discomfort with celebrity and his self-questioning. And those who knew him best concurred that Mr. Wallace was a titanically gifted writer with an equally troubled soul.

“He was a huge talent, our strongest rhetorical writer,” Jonathan Franzen, a friend of Mr. Wallace and the author of “The Corrections,” said in an interview on Sunday, adding later, “He was also as sweet a person as I’ve ever known and as tormented a person as I’ve ever known.”

Mr. Wallace was born in Ithaca, N.Y., where his father was a graduate student in philosophy. When David was 6 months old, his father got a job at the University of Illinois, and the family moved to Champaign, Ill., where David became a locally prominent junior tennis player. At Amherst College, he studied philosophy and English, graduating summa cum laude in 1985. It was also at Amherst, said his mother, Sally Foster Wallace, an English teacher who specialized in grammar, that he began to write. One of his two senior theses became “The Broom of the System”; the other was about Aristotle and whether statements about the future can be true.

Mr. Wallace received a master’s degree in fine arts from the University of Arizona in 1987 and began sending out his short stories, many of them collected in the volumes “Girl With Curious Hair,” “Brief Interviews With Hideous Men” and “Oblivion.” He also wrote essays and reported pieces on an astonishing array of topics, from lobsters to Roger Federer, the pornography industry to John McCain, collected in several volumes, the latest being “Consider the Lobster and Other Essays” (Little, Brown, 2006).

In addition to his wife, whom he married in 2004, and his parents, who live in Urbana, Ill., Mr. Wallace is survived by a sister, Amy Wallace Havens of Tucson.

His father said Sunday that Mr. Wallace had been taking medication for depression for 20 years and that it had allowed his son to be productive. It was something the writer didn’t discuss, though in interviews he gave a hint of his haunting angst.

In response to a question about what being an American was like for him at the end of the 20th century, he told the online magazine Salon in 1996 that there was something sad about it, but not as a reaction to the news or current events. “It’s more like a stomach-level sadness,” he said. “I see it in myself and my friends in different ways. It manifests itself as a kind of lostness.”

James Wallace said that last year his son had begun suffering side effects from the drugs and, at a doctor’s suggestion, had gone off the medication in June 2007. The depression returned, however, and no other treatment was successful. The elder Wallaces had seen their son in August, he said.

“He was being very heavily medicated,” he said. “He’d been in the hospital a couple of times over the summer and had undergone electro-convulsive therapy. Everything had been tried, and he just couldn’t stand it anymore.”

Sunday, September 14, 2008

David Foster Wallace

Just found out that one of the great ones has died: David Foster Wallace.  I read "Infinite Jest" a few months back and loved it.  So I am going to cut and paste and article that I just read about him......

David Foster Wallace, R.I.P.
I was about to go to bed when I read the terribly sad news that novelist/essayist David Foster Wallace was found dead in his California home at age 46 after apparently hanging himself. He was married and had been teaching English and creative writing at Pomona College in Claremont.

I profiled him for the Tribune back in early 1996 when his brilliant, prescient 1,000-plus-page novel "Infinite Jest" was being hailed as a masterwork. Wallace, who was born and raised in Urbana, was teaching at Illinois State University in Normal at the time and was wary of what all of the acclaim might do to him.

He told me that after his first burst of fame that followed the publication of his debut novel, "The Broom of the System" (1987), and the short-story collection "Girl With Curious Hair" (1989), he'd entered a hospital and asked to be put on suicide watch.

"In a weird way it seemed like there was something very American about what was going on, that things were getting better and better for me in terms of all the stuff I thought I wanted, and I was getting unhappier and unhappier," he said.

As sprawling, wildly inventive, funny and on-the-money as "Infinite Jest" turned out to be (for one, he envisioned that everything, even years, would be sponsored), he told me his primary goal was "to do a book that was sad." Suicide factored in there, too (see below).

Aside from seeing him at a subsequent Barbara's Bookstore signing a few blocks from my old apartment (I gave him a button from the movie "Babe" because we were both fans; I think he thought that was weird), I didn't keep in touch with him except by reading his various essays and marveling at his gift for making your head spin and the rest of you laugh while he nailed often-uncomfortable truths. Sometimes I wondered whether he'd ever write another novel.

I have nothing more profound to say. I'm seriously bummed.

Here's that 1996 profile:

Date: Friday, February 23, 1996
Source: By Mark Caro, Tribune Staff Writer.
Section: TEMPO

Dateline: NORMAL
Copyright Chicago Tribune

THE NEXT BIG THING

CAN A DOWNSTATE AUTHOR WITHSTAND THE SENSATION OVER HIS 1,079-PAGE NOVEL?

David Foster Wallace's new novel, "Infinite Jest," weighs about 4 pounds and runs 1,079 pages, almost 100 of which are end notes in teeny-tiny type.

It's not the sort of book, in other words, that you're likely to see on the beach, unless it's a really windy day and a pair of sandals and a tote bag prove inadequate in holding down the towel.

Yet the novel has become what the hypesters like to call the literary sensation of this young year. It has attracted attention across the nation's mainstream print media -- Time, Newsweek, Spin, Esquire, Elle, GQ . . .-- and the reviews have been the type that authors compose in their heads as fantasy-fulfillment exercises.

Details writer David Streitfeld: " `Infinite Jest' is bigger, more ambitious and better than anything else being published in the U.S. right now."

New York magazine's Walter Kirn: "Next year's book awards have been decided. The plaques and citations can now be put in escrow. With `Infinite Jest,' by David Foster Wallace . . . the competition has been obliterated. It's as though Paul Bunyan had joined the NFL or Wittgenstein had gone on `Jeopardy!' The novel is that colossally disruptive. And that spectacularly good."

Wallace -- sitting in his Spartan three-walls-and-a-door office at Illinois State University, where he teaches English literature and creative writing -- said last Friday he hadn't read the New York magazine review (immediate response: "Wow") or many others. He chooses to squint at the figurative spotlight.

"Part of me is extremely pleased and gratified, and part of me suspects a trap -- that somehow there's been a great deal of excitement but that nobody's actually read it and that people are going to find out that this thing's actually pretty hard," said the novelist, who turned 34 on Wednesday. "So all this fuss will have been based on a misunderstanding."

Nevertheless, Wallace was reluctantly gearing up to join the machinery. On Sunday, he left his Bloomington ranch house and two black Labrador-mix dogs to embark on a two-week coast-to-coast publicity tour.

He'll read excerpts of "Infinite Jest" (including next Thursday at 7 p.m. at Barbara's Bookstore, 3130 N. Broadway) and participate in interviews where he hoped -- quixotically -- to deflect any attention from himself.

His self-conscious embarrassment about the trip is reflected in a note on his office door: "D.F. Wallace is out of town on weird personal authorized emergencyish leave from 2/17/96 to 3/3/96 and from 3/5/96 to 3/10/96."

Sharing the hype

Good friend Jonathan Franzen, the New York-based author of "The Twenty-Seventh City" and "Strong Motion," sympathized with the inherent tension in promoting "Infinite Jest." Franzen, who calls the book a critique of "the culture of passive entertainment," noted, "The prospect of this book being hyped by Dave's personality has multiple ironies."

"The irony is not lost on me," conceded Wallace.

(The author, by the way, was wearing a yellow bandanna around his head and a white T-shirt, and he abided the university building's no-smoking rule and his own nicotine addiction by stashing a clump of smokeless tobacco inside his lower lip and occasionally leaning behind his desk to spit the juice into a waste basket.)

"For me the nicest of all possible worlds is if some of this hype could kind of spread itself out a little bit, because there's a lot of really good, fairly serious stuff coming out every year that for some reason or another doesn't catch the eye of the great beast," he said, citing such fellow youngish writers as Franzen, Richard Powers, William T. Vollmann, A.M. Homes, Jeffrey Eugenides and George Saunders.

Written over three years during which Wallace lived in Syracuse, N.Y., and Bloomington (he began teaching at ISU in the fall of 1993), "Infinite Jest" is a grandly conceived, dizzyingly executed, darkly comic vision of America's not-so-distant future.

The U.S., having turned much of New England into a toxic waste dump and ceded it to Canada, has evolved into the Organization of North American Nations (O.N.A.N., with any lewd implications being intentional). The action hopscotches among several corporate-sponsored post-millennium years, which are identified not with numbers but labels such as the Year of the Depend Adult Undergarment, the Year of the Tucks Medicated Pad and the Year of Dairy Products from the American Heartland.

The plot defies a nifty summary that'll let you fake your way through a cocktail party. Let's just say it throws a wide net around a pot-smoking high-school tennis phenom who compulsively reads the Oxford English Dictionary (characteristics shared with Wallace), substance-abuse treatment programs and the ex-burglar/ex-junkie head of a halfway house, a physician's desk reference's worth of pharmaceutical information, terrorist activities by Quebecois separatists and their secret weapon: a film (on a cartridge) that shares the novel's name and is so entertaining that it either kills or lobotomizes those who watch it.

The novel's ample humor runs from sly and obscure to broad slapstick: a bricklayer's insurance claim letter over an accident involving a bucket of bricks and a pulley is a gleefully low high point. Yet alienation, loneliness, obsessive secret-keeping, addiction and despair hang in the air like dark clouds on a windless November day.

Wallace said that when he began writing "Infinite Jest," he didn't realize how large its scope would be. "I wanted to do a book that was sad," he said. "That was really the only idea that was in my head."

His look at life

The novel's melancholy tone grew out of observations Wallace was making as he looked outward and inward. "It seemed to me that there was something sort of sad about the country . . . that at a time when our lives are more comfortable and more full probably of pleasure, sheer pleasure, than any other time in history, that people were essentially miserable," he said.

He included himself near the top of the list. Born and raised in Urbana, where his father remains a philosophy professor at the University of Illinois, the Amherst College graduate attracted the Hot Young Writer buzz (and facile Thomas Pynchon comparisons) when he had two books -- the novel "The Broom of the System" (1987) and short-story collection "Girl With Curious Hair" (1989) -- published while he was in his mid-20s.

He may not have been a star along the lines of the more commercial Jay McInerney and Brett Easton Ellis, but he received enough attention to "mess up my wiring."

"I went through a real bad three years," he said of the late '80s/early '90s, when he lived in Boston (enrolling briefly in Harvard University's Ph.D. program in philosophy) and Syracuse. He even once checked himself into a hospital to be put on a suicide watch.

"In a weird way it seemed like there was something very American about what was going on, that things were getting better and better for me in terms of all the stuff I thought I wanted, and I was getting unhappier and unhappier," he said.

After a few years of not writing, Wallace plunged himself into "Infinite Jest." He observed open Alcoholics Anonymous meetings in Boston and made himself an expert on the histories of art films, various international alliances, recovery movements and pharmacology.

The research reaped personal as well as professional dividends. "If I hadn't gone to a bunch of AA meetings, I wouldn't have gotten rid of my TV, because I started to realize the TV didn't make me happy, but I couldn't stop watching it," he said.

The theme of addiction carried over to the writing itself, with some friends thinking he had vanished or weirded out. "It made it difficult to be a good friend and to get really immersed in other people's problems because I was trying to remember whether somebody was left-handed from 350 pages ago or something like that," he said.

Wallace sold the book to Little, Brown and Co. based on the first 250 pages, which he'd projected to represent a fifth of the final product. So although he knew -- and was grateful -- that the publisher was prepared for a lengthy work, he did have pause that readers might resist the presumed arrogance of his expecting them to traverse almost 1,100 dense pages.

"When I was in my 20s, I thought I was really smart and really clever and that anybody would be privileged to read whatever I'd written," he said. "It's not that I'm entirely over that problem, but I think as one gets older, you begin to realize there needs to be some sort of payoff."

Wallace tried to bridge the gap between avant-garde fiction--too much of which he considers "hellaciously unfun to read" -- and commercial escapism. So he'll be frustrated if "Infinite Jest" succeeds Salman Rushdie's "The Satanic Verses" and Stephen Hawking's "A Brief History of Time" as books that decorate many a shelf without being read.

"I wanted to do something that was really hard but was also really fun and made it worthwhile to spend the effort and the attention to read the thing," he said.

`What it's like to be alive'

Still, he's been fascinated by some reader reactions so far, including some who liken its jump-cut style and information bombardment to cruising the Internet. "I've never been on the Internet," he said. "This is sort of what it's like to be alive. You don't have to be on the Internet for life to feel this way. . . .

"The image in my mind -- and I actually had dreams about it all the time -- was that this book was really a very pretty pane of glass that had been dropped off the 20th story of a building."

Life, incidentally, feels better for Wallace now than several years ago. The teaching takes the pressure off the writing -- financially and emotionally -- and he has enjoyed being back in Illinois despite the flat, dull landscape.

"I thought it would be very boring here, and I'd only stay here a couple of years, but I like this much better than the East Coast," he said.

Victoria Harris, a fellow English professor at ISU, said the students and faculty are grateful to have Wallace there. "He's personally the funniest person I've ever met," she said. "I think he's a treasure. The local fame is something we all like, I think, even more than David."

As for how he'll react to this latest wave of adulation and publicity, Wallace said, "I'd be an idiot if I weren't concerned about it. I'm going to do two weeks of this tour and then it's over, and then I'm back to my life. And I've gotten a lot better at saying `no.' "

The stuff to which Wallace is saying "no" includes TV interviews (though he's considering an appearance on an unnamed PBS show) and the "What's David really like?" kind of features.

"If you're trying to be a writer in a culture where one of our big religions is celebrity -- and there's all kinds of very weird emotional and spiritual and philosophical stuff going on about watching and being watched and celebrity and image -- then you really need to be outside it a bit.

"To the extent that you are watched, I think you're compromised. You now have access to that world in a way that the ordinary reader doesn't. You can't speak for that reader anymore."

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`INFINITE JEST' ON. . .

The founding motto of the Enfield Tennis Academy: "TE OCCIDERE POSSUNT SED TE EDERE NON POSSUNT NEFAS EST." Its translation (end note No. 32): "Roughly, `They Can Kill You, But the Legalities of Eating You Are Quite a Bit Dicier.' "

A stampeding herd of feral hamsters: "The noise of the herd is tornadic, locomotival. The expression on the hamsters' whiskered faces is businesslike and implacable -- it's that
implacable-herd expression."

A hospital's suicide-watch "Special" staff: "Staffers rotated Specials-duty every hour, ostensibly so that whoever was on duty was always fresh and keenly observant, but really because simply sitting there at the foot of a bed looking at somebody who was in so much psychic pain she wanted to commit suicide was incredibly depressing and boring and unpleasant."

Thursday, September 11, 2008

Today's Horoscope...

"All you need is love today, and you have an excellent shot at receiving what you want. Unfortunately, a pleasant day or two won't necessarily cement a long-term relationship, but it still might be a sensual surprise that you remember for a long time to come. Don't push your luck; it's crucial that you know when to stop."

So it looks like I'm in for a pretty good day.  I guess I just have to sit back and let the magic happen.  I mean, who am I to argue with the planets?

Tuesday, September 9, 2008

Jokerman

Standing on the waters casting your bread
While the eyes of the idol with the iron head are glowing.
Distant ships sailing into the mist,
You were born with a snake in both of your fists while a hurricane was blowing.
Freedom just around the corner for you
But with the truth so far off, what good will it do?

Jokerman dance to the nightingale tune,
Bird fly high by the light of the moon,
Oh, oh, oh, Jokerman.

So swiftly the sun sets in the sky,
You rise up and say goodbye to no one.
Fools rush in where angels fear to tread,
Both of their futures, so full of dread, you don't show one.
Shedding off one more layer of skin,
Keeping one step ahead of the persecutor within.

Jokerman dance to the nightingale tune,
Bird fly high by the light of the moon,
Oh, oh, oh, Jokerman.

You're a man of the mountains, you can walk on the clouds,
Manipulator of crowds, you're a dream twister.
You're going to Sodom and Gomorrah
But what do you care? Ain't nobody there would want to marry your sister.
Friend to the martyr, a friend to the woman of shame,
You look into the fiery furnace, see the rich man without any name.

Jokerman dance to the nightingale tune,
Bird fly high by the light of the moon,
Oh, oh, oh, Jokerman.

Well, the Book of Leviticus and Deuteronomy,
The law of the jungle and the sea are your only teachers.
In the smoke of the twilight on a milk-white steed,
Michelangelo indeed could've carved out your features.
Resting in the fields, far from the turbulent space,
Half asleep near the stars with a small dog licking your face.

Jokerman dance to the nightingale tune,
Bird fly high by the light of the moon,
Oh, oh, oh, Jokerman.

Well, the rifleman's stalking the sick and the lame,
Preacherman seeks the same, who'll get there first is uncertain.
Nightsticks and water cannons, tear gas, padlocks,
Molotov cocktails and rocks behind every curtain,
False-hearted judges dying in the webs that they spin,
Only a matter of time 'til night comes steppin' in.

Jokerman dance to the nightingale tune,
Bird fly high by the light of the moon,
Oh, oh, oh, Jokerman.

It's a shadowy world, skies are slippery gray,
A woman just gave birth to a prince today and dressed him in scarlet.
He'll put the priest in his pocket, put the blade to the heat,
Take the motherless children off the street
And place them at the feet of a harlot.
Oh, Jokerman, you know what he wants,
Oh, Jokerman, you don't show any response.

Jokerman dance to the nightingale tune,
Bird fly high by the light of the moon,
Oh, oh, oh, Jokerman.

-Bob Dylan

X Files - Post Modern Prometheus - Walking in Memphis

I love this scene! I've already posted it to my blog, but it needs to show up once in awhile. Check it out.......

Quite the Disappearing Act...

Two and a half weeks and nothing.  That's a pretty drastic turn from texts every day.  Is is safe to say that you are gone forever?  I'd hate to think that is the case, but all signs are pointing to "yes."  And there isn't much I can do.  My hands are tied.  It was said that there would be new numbers.  Preventative measures taken.  Barriers.  All means used to prevent communication.  Looks like ti worked.  Especially from my end.  I have nothing I can do.  You, on the other hand, I would think have options.  Maybe limited ones, but still some options.  I mean, I'm here.  Nothing changes on my end.  No one sneaking around and checking to see who I'm talking to.  I have the ability to receive and respond to texts at any time.  And yet, not a one.  That's pretty cold.  Pretty fucking cold.  To be thrown away so quickly.  So effortlessly.

Life goes on, though.  Right?  And so I'll just pick myself up.  Dust myself off.  And get back into the game.  Don't put on the injured list.  I'm fine, friends and neighbors.  In a way, its good to get knocked on your ass.  Reminds you of the stakes.  Tests your resolve.  Do you have what it takes, or are you just going through the motions?  Well I say, "game on!"  Game on.................

Tuesday, September 2, 2008

Yeah September!

The other blog that I like to read was talking about the season premiere's of certain shows.  Ouch! Don't worry about me EVER writing about some stupid TV show premiere.  I spent some time on Sunday doing my laundry at my folks house.  Its pretty much become the my weekly visit/laundry day on Sunday.  And I usually get in my weekly dose of TV on Sunday.  And let me tell you, that each week I'm left with a serious loathing for that damn box.  I mean, I sit there flipping the damn channels looking for something worthwhile to watch.  And there isn't a damn thing on.

But at least football season has started.  So now I have much more to read on my sports pages.  I won't be seeing too many of the games, what with no TV and all.  But I read about them.  And the Heels won on Saturday, so things are pretty good....